What, So what, Now what

What: This week during class I have really started to realize how much I enjoy being with these kids...for the most part. I think that our lesson this week was a little on the weak side. I realized that what we were teaching was becoming really repetitive for me. I think this is where the creative side of things comes into play. I have also started developing my own teaching style I think that it will be a good start and hopefully I will continue building upon it. I have been feeling really overwhelmed with all the assignments we have on top of observing. Is this how a teacher is really going to feel? Gosh I hope not. Other than that I feel as though this has been a bitter sweet last week. I am sad to leave the kids and really enjoyed teaching them but man am I happy to be able to leave. Some days I thought I was going to die. Our classroom was full of about 10 students that had severe behavioral problems or a physical or mental disorder. This was definitely a challenge at times.
So what:
So now after experiencing all of this I know being a teacher is for sure what I want. I also know I do not want to teacher upper grade levels. I would like to stick with k-4th. This would be ideal for me. I am also hoping that this experience will make me a better teacher in the future. I have a better sense of how to discipline the students as well as reassure them when they are doing the right thing and getting the answers correct. Oh yes and another thing I think that will help me is the communication factor. I was able to communicate a lot better this go around during the week. Not only with my students but with my partner as well. Which is great!
Now what:
Now I get to go back to being a student. Yuck, but I am taking this experience with me and am going to be able to analyze situations better now. Also I am going to be a better teacher through the faculty members teaching me as well as other students and someday my future class. To me this experience has been wonderful. I have laughed, cried been freaking frustrated but overall gained a kind of confidence and professionalism when necessary. I am going to love being a teacher.